My friend helped me figure out the best way to deal with my bitchy coworker: Warm and fuzzy. I’ll start by posting uplifting messages around my work station. Maybe add some splashes of color, bring in a plant or two. Show kindness and compassion where she is condescending and cruel to people. I think it’s because like so many people, she experienced tragedy that she couldn’t emotionally handle, she ended up having a mental breakdown, and now she’s closed down, bitter, angry. I get it, I think we all understand. How much can heart and soul take before they just snap?
On my better days I try to think of it in terms of what lessons am I meant to be learning here? Why am I receiving these challenges? And sometimes, I slip back into wondering, what the fuck did I do so wrong in my last life? Ah, but we’re all just bits of energy flying through space, and it’s hard to know anything except on a soul level, because a lot doesn’t make sense otherwise. What is this reality anyway? It’s sure messy. You can use religion, or work, or addictions, or many things to help you muddle your way through, but I feel like it’s all about how we interact with each other.
My hope is to put even a bit of good energy back out there, show that we all have strong emotions, we all deserve mercy and forgiveness. And I’d love to encourage more of the same. Who knows what could happen when all those atoms and molecules start interacting in different ways. That woman at work is going to be overcome by warm and fuzzy, I just know it. It peeks out here and there in her, like it does in everyone. Yeah, I know I sound all idealistic, but my friend inspired me to go back towards the path that feels best. And it sure as fuck ain’t angry materialism. Warm and fuzzy is way more my style, it just got beaten out of me for a while, and it’s been a looooooong road to recovery.
Favorite Facebook meme of the day (even though I shut it down for NaNoWriMo) – “Never trust an atom; they make up everything.”
Love to all
Dakota – Stereophonics
White Flag – Dido
Whatever It Takes – Lifehouse
Boys of Summer – The Ataris
Lookin’ Out My Back Door – CCR
…and some Beethoven