It’s gotten so abruptly cold here that the Red Cross has opened warming centers already. It hurts my soul to think of people outside in this weather. I mean, it’s not blizzarding and snowy, but the icy rain penetrates everything, and then freezes. Knowing what a large number of vets are on the street tonight just makes me even more motivated to help where I can. It infuriates me that we don’t take care of our people- no one is disposable and everyone is needed and necessary. So tonight, while everyone else is climbing into their warm safe beds, I’m going out to help staff a warming shelter. Because every day I’m still here is a Christmas miracle. Because so many people have helped me along the way. Because I can.
I don’t need sleep- I’m used to not getting it anyway. I was planning to do NaNoWriMo until late tonight, but that will have to wait as well. Some things are important enough to blow everything else off for. It’s a tiny thing really, and it will be lost to the fullness of time, but I’ll say it again: It’s like dropping pebbles in a pond, and hoping the ripples spread. Hatred, fear, violence- they all cover the world in darkness and despair, but it only takes one little light to light up the dark. And when I feel at my worst, filled with depression, loneliness, despair- that’s when I work the hardest to send good energy out there. My life is messy, agonizing, and frequently disastrous- it would be nice if I could help someone else, even in some tiny little way.
And blessings to all my sisters everywhere and the Goddess Quan-Yin, for inspiring me with the strength to go on when I think I can’t possibly make it.
Shadow Of The Day- Linkin Park
Praying For Time- George Michael
Let Your Love Flow- Bellamy Brothers