Monthly Archives: October 2016

The force of a memory

The most amazing opportunity came up – not sure if it’s viable or if I’ll take it, but it would certainly change my life completely. What a relief to only have one job, instead of my normal two or three, … Continue reading

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Rehab

It’s been six years from the last major suicide attempt, five years out from my last pharmaceutical – non-recreational anyway. The pills in my life now are gummy vitamins and vitamin D. It’s mind bending to be in a completely … Continue reading

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Catch-22; the arts version

How do you find a job/career that pays well enough that you can do your art, and also leaves you enough time to do it? My job pays well, but it sucks all the energy right out of me. I … Continue reading

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At last

Ohhhhh my yes. Finally found a studio that offers the kind of dance classes I want to take. *wiggling with ecstasy* The more intense and stressful my work is, the more I have to push my exercise/play time to balance … Continue reading

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Like the rain – Part 857

The rain feels like a curtain of relaxation washing over. I love the sound of it, the smell of it, the feel of the water as it hits my upturned face. It feels like liquid memories, crying out of my … Continue reading

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Autumn colors

I used to lie on the carpet in front of our jukebox listening to this song. I would turn the lights down and the volume up, and wonder what the hell was wrong with me when everything was so right … Continue reading

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Hot springs in falling snow

The rains have started, a little patter of gray wet poetry. I want to curl up in something cozy, and wallow in art work. I feel newly inspired, a consequence of reading a phenomenal book plus learning a wicked great … Continue reading

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