Tag Archives: anxiety

Moving at speed

The joy of vacation days; it’s divine to have paid time off, I’m so grateful. Even though I can’t use cannabis, I’m doing other things to get my stress level down; walking, biking in the sunshine, class at the gym, … Continue reading

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Don’t Wait Up

One of the best things about having such a wild CV, is that I can switch careers or jobs pretty much at will – and it’s well past time for a change. The sucky part is having to stop using … Continue reading

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Not the trendy cute kind

Day seven without cannabis and I feel like a tightly wound mess. Work is always challenging – bitchy women in a small office, lots of gossip and fighting, on top of everything else. God I miss roofing with the guys, … Continue reading

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A label and a messy story

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I foolishly tried a vitamin supplement that I thought would help with the ADD/ADHD, and holy effing crap it was a nightmare. So much for “all-natural,” I was tripping … Continue reading

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Mother nature throwing down the gauntlet

Apologies to my readers for the swamp of depression instead of the auto porn or travel writing that I prefer to post. Shit gets messy sometimes. I write about my battles with PTSD, depression, and anxiety because it helps me … Continue reading

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Static

The wind feels no different, the rain falls the same way, and I keep thinking about the sound that comes through the speakers when the needle touches the record. That incredibly full and rich sound, with a touch of scratchy. … Continue reading

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The rush

The snow is falling, gusting down in fat, wet flakes and I’m so happy about it. I want to go out hiking in it, basking in the beauty of it, enjoying how quiet it makes the city, wishing I could … Continue reading

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Spring fever

I walked out of OMSI and by the time I got to the parking lot I was in a hyperventilating panic attack. It’s so embarrassing – I always bust ass to get out of public view, it’s challenging maintaining your … Continue reading

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Forever in blue jeans

Shopping is a weird kind of battle, and shopping for clothes is awful. It used to be a bit of an addiction but now luckily I can usually channel it into less harmful places. But when I realized recently that … Continue reading

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Dating for black sheep

Dating is brutal and it makes me feel old and cynical. The inner voice that gets all sarcastic and says “Sure, that won’t end badly.” Uh huh. I’m not friends with many of the dudes I’ve dated. I’ve picked some … Continue reading

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