Tag Archives: anxiety

7000 words

My ex-fiance used to¬† mock me for claiming to be a writer, but not ever writing. He didn’t understand and I never wanted to explain, even if I’d had the words back then. Even now I struggle, still have those … Continue reading

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4 hours

Looking at my life and what I own, I figure that from anywhere in the city, I’m only four hours away from walking away from everything. Meaning that I could get home, pack what I need, grab my passport, and … Continue reading

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Trail running

Scrubbing dirt and gravel out of wounds was not how I meant to spend vacation time. A little run through some beautiful Vermont woods seemed like a great idea to reduce stress. We all know that exercise hugely helps to … Continue reading

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Moving at speed

The joy of vacation days; it’s divine to have paid time off, I’m so grateful. Even though I can’t use cannabis, I’m doing other things to get my stress level down; walking, biking in the sunshine, class at the gym, … Continue reading

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Don’t Wait Up

One of the best things about having such a wild CV, is that I can switch careers or jobs pretty much at will – and it’s well past time for a change. The sucky part is having to stop using … Continue reading

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Not the trendy cute kind

Day seven without cannabis and I feel like a tightly wound mess. Work is always challenging – bitchy women in a small office, lots of gossip and fighting, on top of everything else. God I miss roofing with the guys, … Continue reading

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A label and a messy story

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I foolishly tried a vitamin supplement that I thought would help with the ADD/ADHD, and holy effing crap it was a nightmare. So much for “all-natural,” I was tripping … Continue reading

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Mother nature throwing down the gauntlet

Apologies to my readers for the swamp of depression instead of the auto porn or travel writing that I prefer to post. Shit gets messy sometimes. I write about my battles with PTSD, depression, and anxiety because it helps me … Continue reading

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Static

The wind feels no different, the rain falls the same way, and I keep thinking about the sound that comes through the speakers when the needle touches the record. That incredibly full and rich sound, with a touch of scratchy. … Continue reading

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The rush

The snow is falling, gusting down in fat, wet flakes and I’m so happy about it. I want to go out hiking in it, basking in the beauty of it, enjoying how quiet it makes the city, wishing I could … Continue reading

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