Tag Archives: depression

Trephining

The leaves are turning into the deep jewel tones of autumn and you still aren’t here. Reading my psychology text book reminded me of why that is. According to a clinical diagnosis, I’m bipolar. Like really bipolar. Also according to … Continue reading

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Out of the darkness walk

I signed up for the Out of the Darkness walk this year. When I struggle to get out of bed, when all seems lost, hopeless, agonizingly painful in a completely isolated kind of way and I think I can’t bear … Continue reading

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Retro happy

Time for a musical interlude, and yes after reading terrible news and seeing sad things, it’s time for some cheesy retro happy music. SOTD In A Letter to You – Eddy Raven Hold My Hand – Hootie and the Blowfish … Continue reading

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Trail running

Scrubbing dirt and gravel out of wounds was not how I meant to spend vacation time. A little run through some beautiful Vermont woods seemed like a great idea to reduce stress. We all know that exercise hugely helps to … Continue reading

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This is why people don’t tell

Look at the news; it’s full of powerful people tearing this woman down, ripping apart her life. She’s getting death threats. No one wants to report sexual abuse, because it’s always hell for the victim, and the perpetrator(s) rarely have … Continue reading

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Beacon of blue

They’re family, and I’m so proud of their accomplishments, delighted to see them. Spending time with them is wonderful; Lord knows I don’t have much family left, and I appreciate what I do have… and maybe coming here was a … Continue reading

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A little in love

How often do people really take the time to be present and compassionate? I’m profoundly grateful to feel heard. I fell a little in love with the new guy for calling me when I admitted I came home early to … Continue reading

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Heat release

Yesterday I sat down with someone who advised ” Don’t ever lose that fire, yes you can and do inspire people.” Well damn, that put a spike in my Dignitas research, but what a beautiful relief. I really needed the … Continue reading

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Requiem request

Everything’s fine, but I want to put this in writing, because I see it every day how life can change in a flash: Burn everything. All my journals, mementos, scrapbooks, clothes – please just burn it all. Use any body … Continue reading

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The Itch

That driving energy in my head that I can’t turn off – it has a lot of potential labels, but I call it The Itch, and it manifests in various ways: the burning compulsion to paint that I had for … Continue reading

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