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Monday morning

Sometimes reconnecting with an old friend can provide valuable insight and powerful grounding. I had breakfast this morning with one of my dearest friends from high school, and the conversation reminded me of some important lessons about life, humanity, and … Continue reading

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The spiky inhale

The depression is back, and I could list the reasons why, but it doesn’t change the reality of living with it. The sensation of each breath being a spiky scratch of pain, regret, and the deepest sorrow – all unnecessary, … Continue reading

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The Smell of Water

Watering my plants nearly brought me to tears; is it to late to run away and live on a boat somewhere? The smell of the water was intense, primal, necessary. When I think about the water – swimming, fishing, listening … Continue reading

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RIP Another brilliant human

I dream of running teams of art therapists and teachers to drop in to crisis areas (most of the planet?) to help humans work through things individually and as communities, because people who are emotionally wounded need to heal. All … Continue reading

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Float therapy #5

I fell asleep in the sensory deprivation tank today, it was amazing. Usually I just enjoy the time, but I was exhausted, and as soon as I got comfortable and turned the light out, I was out as well. Interestingly … Continue reading

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Super blue

In a sunny blooming park I ran another 5k this morning. I was craving the happy chemical release, and hoping the challenge would distract from the mental circles I keep running in. Physical exertion can distract me from how broken … Continue reading

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Solid illusion

I never thought I would be able to read the same way again after some of the drugs that were prescribed for me. What a relief to fully have my books back again, to be able to plow through 500 … Continue reading

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Moving at speed

The joy of vacation days; it’s divine to have paid time off, I’m so grateful. Even though I can’t use cannabis, I’m doing other things to get my stress level down; walking, biking in the sunshine, class at the gym, … Continue reading

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Don’t Wait Up

One of the best things about having such a wild CV, is that I can switch careers or jobs pretty much at will – and it’s well past time for a change. The sucky part is having to stop using … Continue reading

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Not the trendy cute kind

Day seven without cannabis and I feel like a tightly wound mess. Work is always challenging – bitchy women in a small office, lots of gossip and fighting, on top of everything else. God I miss roofing with the guys, … Continue reading

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