Tag Archives: hope

Heat release

Yesterday I sat down with someone who advised ” Don’t ever lose that fire, yes you can and do inspire people.” Well damn, that put a spike in my Dignitas research, but what a beautiful relief. I really needed the … Continue reading

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The Itch

That driving energy in my head that I can’t turn off – it has a lot of potential labels, but I call it The Itch, and it manifests in various ways: the burning compulsion to paint that I had for … Continue reading

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Soul mates

My superpower is the manifestation of instant karma. It rarely fails; I mess up somehow, and the universe ensures that instantly I’m forced to confront and intimately reckon with my mistake. On the unusual occasion that it doesn’t happen like … Continue reading

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Secret graffiti

I love when restaurants or bars paint chalkboard paint on the bathroom walls and leave a bowl of chalk. A few just paint their walls white and leave a tray of markers out. The comments are what you would expect … Continue reading

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Unlabeled

Even now I hesitate to say the words. I don’t want to give form to the nebulous, or power to the label. People have such preconceived notions about mental health differences, but the bulk of responses are not anything I … Continue reading

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The Smell of Water

Watering my plants nearly brought me to tears; is it to late to run away and live on a boat somewhere? The smell of the water was intense, primal, necessary. When I think about the water – swimming, fishing, listening … Continue reading

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The fundamental interconnectedness of all things

I’ve been reading a book that makes some very interesting points about human connection. What’s fascinating is the concept of connection as they present it: Do we really feel lonely and craving an emotional or romantic connection, or is it … Continue reading

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Solid illusion

I never thought I would be able to read the same way again after some of the drugs that were prescribed for me. What a relief to fully have my books back again, to be able to plow through 500 … Continue reading

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Moving at speed

The joy of vacation days; it’s divine to have paid time off, I’m so grateful. Even though I can’t use cannabis, I’m doing other things to get my stress level down; walking, biking in the sunshine, class at the gym, … Continue reading

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Except for today

Between one breath and the next everything changed. I’d felt it coming for hours, but I hadn’t been able to slip away for a moment to breathe, cry, walk it out. My work is intense at times, and the pressure … Continue reading

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