Tag Archives: mental illness

Mother nature throwing down the gauntlet

Apologies to my readers for the swamp of depression instead of the auto porn or travel writing that I prefer to post. Shit gets messy sometimes. I write about my battles with PTSD, depression, and anxiety because it helps me … Continue reading

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The force of a memory

The most amazing opportunity came up – not sure if it’s viable or if I’ll take it, but it would certainly change my life completely. What a relief to only have one job, instead of my normal two or three, … Continue reading

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Damn fools

The lawyer dude started preaching a little about how it’s impossible to be depressed when you consider how lucky we are, especially in comparison with many parts of the world. I just smiled and looked at him, inwardly wrestling with … Continue reading

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A deck of cards

My coworker just had a complete breakdown at work today and flipped out on our director. I don’t think I’ll see her for a while, if at all. It’s really hard to see someone snap like that, with so much … Continue reading

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Music to break your heart

People who saw me crash would never believe how well I’m doing now. Actually I prefer to never see most people again if they’ve seen me bottom out in hard core depression, they never look at you the same, rarely … Continue reading

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Let me be your shelter

What really got me about visiting Mother Teresa’s mission in Kolkata was seeing the people who were on the block between there and the Kali temple. It’s literally where the poorest of the poor go to die – the outcast, … Continue reading

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Write it out

I get to go on an out-of-town writing assignment this week, and I may have a heart attack from excitement. My editor can get press passes for the exhibits I am going to review, and holy shit- best work ever! … Continue reading

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Perpetual rush

I only have one friend that I can bear to hear say the term “manic” or “depressed,” without it feeling like a stab to the heart. Otherwise it’s usually derogatory, harsh, and backed by a lack of understanding, so I … Continue reading

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Use your crazy for good

That’s pretty much it. Mental illness is everywhere, and we sometimes have to remind each other of this one, very basic principle. Besides, humans are really all crazy. And damn, I wish there weren’t so many violent ones. Love to … Continue reading

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The soundtrack of a broken heart

I’d bet that he’s amazing to the people that are in his inner circle. Oh how I wanted to be one of them- ridiculous as it seems now. Different people, different paths and all that. My path is a little … Continue reading

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