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Moving at speed

The joy of vacation days; it’s divine to have paid time off, I’m so grateful. Even though I can’t use cannabis, I’m doing other things to get my stress level down; walking, biking in the sunshine, class at the gym, … Continue reading

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Not the trendy cute kind

Day seven without cannabis and I feel like a tightly wound mess. Work is always challenging – bitchy women in a small office, lots of gossip and fighting, on top of everything else. God I miss roofing with the guys, … Continue reading

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Except for today

Between one breath and the next everything changed. I’d felt it coming for hours, but I hadn’t been able to slip away for a moment to breathe, cry, walk it out. My work is intense at times, and the pressure … Continue reading

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A label and a messy story

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I foolishly tried a vitamin supplement that I thought would help with the ADD/ADHD, and holy effing crap it was a nightmare. So much for “all-natural,” I was tripping … Continue reading

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Mother nature throwing down the gauntlet

Apologies to my readers for the swamp of depression instead of the auto porn or travel writing that I prefer to post. Shit gets messy sometimes. I write about my battles with PTSD, depression, and anxiety because it helps me … Continue reading

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The rush

The snow is falling, gusting down in fat, wet flakes and I’m so happy about it. I want to go out hiking in it, basking in the beauty of it, enjoying how quiet it makes the city, wishing I could … Continue reading

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Insomnia playlist

I love and hate them, those hours before dawn. When sleep is a dim impossibility, and my head is overflowing the second I wake up a little after 1:00am. I was so excited to write all day today, and when … Continue reading

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Under the harvest moon

A little wave blew through today, and I could almost smell the ocean, hear the waves breaking on a rocky shore, feel the familiar path beneath my feet. Followed immediately by a wash of homesickness and longing for what is … Continue reading

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Urban lullabies

How powerful does a human experience have to be before it leaves a mark on your soul? I only ask because there’s some shit I don’t want to repeat in any other lifetime. I couldn’t sleep last night – all … Continue reading

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Damn fools

The lawyer dude started preaching a little about how it’s impossible to be depressed when you consider how lucky we are, especially in comparison with many parts of the world. I just smiled and looked at him, inwardly wrestling with … Continue reading

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