Tag Archives: panic attacks

Mother nature throwing down the gauntlet

Apologies to my readers for the swamp of depression instead of the auto porn or travel writing that I prefer to post. Shit gets messy sometimes. I write about my battles with PTSD, depression, and anxiety because it helps me … Continue reading

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The rush

The snow is falling, gusting down in fat, wet flakes and I’m so happy about it. I want to go out hiking in it, basking in the beauty of it, enjoying how quiet it makes the city, wishing I could … Continue reading

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Insomnia playlist

I love and hate them, those hours before dawn. When sleep is a dim impossibility, and my head is overflowing the second I wake up a little after 1:00am. I was so excited to write all day today, and when … Continue reading

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Under the harvest moon

A little wave blew through today, and I could almost smell the ocean, hear the waves breaking on a rocky shore, feel the familiar path beneath my feet. Followed immediately by a wash of homesickness and longing for what is … Continue reading

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Urban lullabies

How powerful does a human experience have to be before it leaves a mark on your soul? I only ask because there’s some shit I don’t want to repeat in any other lifetime. I couldn’t sleep last night – all … Continue reading

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Damn fools

The lawyer dude started preaching a little about how it’s impossible to be depressed when you consider how lucky we are, especially in comparison with many parts of the world. I just smiled and looked at him, inwardly wrestling with … Continue reading

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Spring fever

I walked out of OMSI and by the time I got to the parking lot I was in a hyperventilating panic attack. It’s so embarrassing – I always bust ass to get out of public view, it’s challenging maintaining your … Continue reading

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One stitch at a time

I give up; this is not working for me at all. Being trapped at a desk surrounded by angry people and constant drama – when I work hard to create a calm and peaceful life – ugh I have to … Continue reading

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The other side of the desk

I’m so glad that I don’t work in the pediatrics unit. I have a badge that allows me access to all parts of the hospital, but that area is really hard. All those years of teaching and working in classrooms,  … Continue reading

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Centuries later

I hate panic attacks. It’s been a while since I had one that bad, where I needed to have external help to redirect. The tears, the inability to breathe, the giant wave of complete despair. I had to go down … Continue reading

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