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The Itch

That driving energy in my head that I can’t turn off – it has a lot of potential labels, but I call it The Itch, and it manifests in various ways: the burning compulsion to paint that I had for … Continue reading

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Soul mates

My superpower is the manifestation of instant karma. It rarely fails; I mess up somehow, and the universe ensures that instantly I’m forced to confront and intimately reckon with my mistake. On the unusual occasion that it doesn’t happen like … Continue reading

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Secret graffiti

I love when restaurants or bars paint chalkboard paint on the bathroom walls and leave a bowl of chalk. A few just paint their walls white and leave a tray of markers out. The comments are what you would expect … Continue reading

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Monday morning

Sometimes reconnecting with an old friend can provide valuable insight and powerful grounding. I had breakfast this morning with one of my dearest friends from high school, and the conversation reminded me of some important lessons about life, humanity, and … Continue reading

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The spiky inhale

The depression is back, and I could list the reasons why, but it doesn’t change the reality of living with it. The sensation of each breath being a spiky scratch of pain, regret, and the deepest sorrow – all unnecessary, … Continue reading

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Unlabeled

Even now I hesitate to say the words. I don’t want to give form to the nebulous, or power to the label. People have such preconceived notions about mental health differences, but the bulk of responses are not anything I … Continue reading

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The Smell of Water

Watering my plants nearly brought me to tears; is it to late to run away and live on a boat somewhere? The smell of the water was intense, primal, necessary. When I think about the water – swimming, fishing, listening … Continue reading

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Float therapy #5

I fell asleep in the sensory deprivation tank today, it was amazing. Usually I just enjoy the time, but I was exhausted, and as soon as I got comfortable and turned the light out, I was out as well. Interestingly … Continue reading

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Solid illusion

I never thought I would be able to read the same way again after some of the drugs that were prescribed for me. What a relief to fully have my books back again, to be able to plow through 500 … Continue reading

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Don’t Wait Up

One of the best things about having such a wild CV, is that I can switch careers or jobs pretty much at will – and it’s well past time for a change. The sucky part is having to stop using … Continue reading

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