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The Smell of Water

Watering my plants nearly brought me to tears; is it to late to run away and live on a boat somewhere? The smell of the water was intense, primal, necessary. When I think about the water – swimming, fishing, listening … Continue reading

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Float therapy #5

I fell asleep in the sensory deprivation tank today, it was amazing. Usually I just enjoy the time, but I was exhausted, and as soon as I got comfortable and turned the light out, I was out as well. Interestingly … Continue reading

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Solid illusion

I never thought I would be able to read the same way again after some of the drugs that were prescribed for me. What a relief to fully have my books back again, to be able to plow through 500 … Continue reading

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Don’t Wait Up

One of the best things about having such a wild CV, is that I can switch careers or jobs pretty much at will – and it’s well past time for a change. The sucky part is having to stop using … Continue reading

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Except for today

Between one breath and the next everything changed. I’d felt it coming for hours, but I hadn’t been able to slip away for a moment to breathe, cry, walk it out. My work is intense at times, and the pressure … Continue reading

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The secret plan

One of the best benefits to working in health care is never knowing what your day is actually going to be like. I’ve seen nervous breakdowns, screaming, new babies, floods, deaths, pest infestations, cheating, fire, love, hate – and those … Continue reading

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The sounds of daily living

My employer has a program where they pay for and offer free counseling sessions, and as you can imagine, the counselors are packed busy full with depressed, stressed out clients. I slipped into the mix, and unexpectedly fell in love … Continue reading

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Winter lights

The Portland Winter Light Festival was completely beautiful and fun. All after dark, all over town – it really was magical. I love sculpture in general, and what a great time of year to have an event like this.  And … Continue reading

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Love in times of war

Miss you. I so hoped I would meet you in this lifetime. If nothing else, so I could have had a family, some stability, and to hopefully get laid regularly. Reality sucks sometimes. Oops, would it be more acceptable to … Continue reading

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A label and a messy story

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I foolishly tried a vitamin supplement that I thought would help with the ADD/ADHD, and holy effing crap it was a nightmare. So much for “all-natural,” I was tripping … Continue reading

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